SEPTEMBER

09/03/26

FIRST OFF!!

Hey everyone. My life is like metroid. I lost everything again. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY COOL FLAME THROWER? DAMN YOU METROIDDDDD!!
I went to a cemetary and cried a bit, then I went and got falafel. I am acutely aware of how little time I have in life, I almost died probably 5 times this year. In fact it's a miracle I am still here. So I ended up getting rid of most of my possessions, I got rid of social media, I got rid of every distraction I could. Everyone in my old life wanted me to fulfill something for them, mostly they wanted to sleep with me. While I am very flattered, I didn't have anyone who wanted me for who I was, and that gets old. So now I am more or less going at it alone, with this website being the only personal aspect of me left on the internet.
If I want to connect with people, I have books, and if I get bored, I'll just book a flight somewhere.
Now compared to everything this should be the least of my problems, but it has certainly been on my mind alot lately. Until two or so months ago I was dating someone and I really thought we would last forever, so does everyone in love I suppose, but they were cheating and somehow I never noticed. There is something particularly humbling about it, of course I was devastated, but the whole ordeal made me realize how important it is to stand on my own.
I want to model again, I want to travel the world, and above all I want to create things.
I think there is good reason to not trust humans, and I think it is dangerous to assume other people have the same ideas of morals and decency you do. I will put all my energy into standing on my own rather than trying to see the good, and I do think that is the best way for anyone to bring good into the world.
I'm very tired of people not believing me when I tell them what I am capable of. You've seen me before, and you will see my again. Whether it takes a day or a year or a decade, I promise you will see me again.

EPILOGUE

HELLO AGAIN!! attached are some images, as well as a cover I threw together in a couple minutes last week. Only the lowest quality content for those who dare to read my words.