From: Quatro

08/11/25

Recent times

I've been thinking about mortality a lot. It feels like a sickness in the sense that it's almost always on my mind and I can never run from it. I feel it in how I breathe and see it in the flowers as they bloom. I've felt short on time for a long while, I think everyone should. just in case.

a zen master once said "In my youth I was a tiger, now I am a cat." though I feel more like a pigeon.

I've been thinking alot about who I am and the one thing that came to mind was the first bodhisattva vow of Mahāyāna Buddhists,
"Although sentient beings are innumerable, we vow to save them."
I haven't got the others down quite so much, but there's a lot in this one. I like how direct and in the moment it is, not to save them all but to save them, and like the third vow it is at the same time impossible and worth all your energy. The third vow being:
"Although the teaching is limitless, we vow to learn it all."
These two keep me going through everything.

Being considered gentle is the greatest compliment.